Long Time No See!!

Hiya!!

I know....

i haven't posted in forever but I'm posting now so don't kill me!!

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Anyways.

I've been so tired lately and i dont know why.

I just cant seem to get enough rest.

I just hope i dont get sick from all this.

My head hurts a lot and my grades aren't doing too well from the lack of sleep either.

I got the proud grade of 67% in Math and my science grade went down...again. I didn't too well on an easy french test and i cant focus,think,speak clearly anymore.

I just.....ugh!

And I feel like I need a good cry because I'm missing the last two of my manga classes on Saturday. And I love it so much and i wont be able to say goodbye to them and give them hugs and it just sucks because i always loved going and it was something new and different and it helped with my drawings and encouraged my creativity and it was just a really fun realxing place to be and get away from everything.

*sigh*

On top of all that I'm not sure how much longer my dog is going to live.

He's lost too much weight too fast and he hasn't eaten anything and even when he drinks water it just comes right back up.

He's just not doing well....and I'm not sure whats going to happen.

And you know what really sucks?

I hate being down.

I dont like crying!

I want to laugh and have fun!

I want to be happy, i like being happy!!

And I'm finding that it's getting harder to lose myself in everyone and thing around me and enjoy the moment...which is what i used to do so easily before.

I dont want to become depressed again.

urgh!

There's too much drama and highschool!!

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Ah well....

So....

hope you guys have been doing well!

Can't wait until the play huh?

:)

I'm listening to one of my favorite songs!

It's Once Upon a December from Anastasia

Ever heard it???

It's really good!

I love the movie too.

Well....

Some of us have to be to school bright and early tomorrow (><) (from 9am to 3 pm!!)

oh and go watch the video at the bottom

I love the song! and the singer is pretty cute too!!

;)

tee hee!

;)

A.Q.

the professional moodswinger

I believe in...???

Hey Everyone!!

I'm tired again but thank god it's Friday!!!

School just wipes me out!

*yawn*

Anyways I'm supposed to be talking about what I believe in...

I was baptized a christian but went to a Lutheran church until I was 9. I never really liked going to church except for friends and food....almost like school. So I think even then I didn't believe in God. But then, just recently, since 8th grade, my dad has started this whole 'Oh God is my savior' thing and he's been trying to almost force God on my younger sister and I. That's what finally made me think,

"Do I even believe in God???"

Seriously! I'm not sure if I'm just in my rebellious age or not but my dad has really been getting on my nerves lately!

(****Warning: I'm going to start venting. I sometimes get really whiny when I vent or complain a lot and sound ungrateful but it feels great to get things off your chest once in awhile...)

I mean every time I try to bring something up like faeries or something he shoots it down and says its not real. But then he adds 'Unicorns are real because God made them'

Ugh!!

That makes me so mad!!

What is with this God anyway???!!

If he's so praised then why are so many people suffering down here while he's sitting up in cozy old 'heaven' ???!!

And why is he a he!!??

Huh?!!

Why is that!!??

Because this religion was made in the time when men thought they were superior to women!!

And he has such a big ego!!

My dad was talking about how god said that you could only believe in him and no other gods and if you did believe in other gods it was a sin.

My god!!

(Excuse the pun. It wasn't intentional.)

why is Christianity so hot and other the other religions unreal??!!

Why cant we believe in whatever the hell we want to huh???

Or how about a mixture???

*heavy sigh*

Okay now that's off my chest I can talk about what I do believe in.

I believe in magic.

Go ahead laugh at me.

I don't care.

It's what I believe in and I'll stand by it.

I'm open to must religions as long as there not big superficial things!

The kind of magic I'm talking about is stuff like elves and faeries and dwarfs and dragons and spells and witches and true love and curses and other worlds and secret doors to different places and things happening right under our nose that we dismiss as everyday events and really they are extraordinary chances that we, being ignorant humans, miss...etc...

Things like that.

That's why I'm always off in another world daydreaming of beautiful things.

That's why i love reading and writing.

But then someone says,

"Ya know they're not real right? It's all fakes and illusions."

And I just shrug it off and pig-headedly stand by it but I don't like arguing these kind of things much...

I don't believe in Santa the Easter Bunny or stuff like that but...you know what I believe in...

I've gotta go to bed now....maybe....I think i may fiddle around on the Internet some more even though it's late and my eyes are drooping...

I just don't want to go to bed yet....

I'm to restless after I vent...

So...

I wish you all a good late night and may your dreams come true!

I'm so tired....*snore*

Hi everyone.

As the title says I am tired...

Today was the first day back to school from break and those are worst than any monday in my book.

I usually dont hate school actually i kind of enjoy it but today....

It was just REALLY ticking me off!!!

*Sigh...*

Anyways...

My christmas was really great!

What made it one of the best was that my cousins were here!

My cousins, who I love to pieces, had moved to North Carolina about 2 years ago and I haven't really seen or talked to them in any form since then.

My aunt and uncle have a bad habit of shutting themselves off from the rest of the family...unless they need something...like money....

Anyways I have 3 guy cousins two younger than me,13 about, and one older than me, 16. They are so much fun to hang around with and they do the stupidest stuff too!!

Man I really missed them a lot.

It was one of those things where you know you miss them but when they come to visit you realize how much you missed them.

And I believe its doubly sad one they leave again.

But I can't complain much(Even though I do...but I try really hard not to!!) because I know I am one of the luckiest kids alive.

I realize this but I still have the bad habit of complaining once someone pionts it out or starts it first. Ive been trying really hard to break it but...its hard!

Boy! Look at me! Im not even talking about being tired anymore!

Man do I really ramble on!

*laughs*

Ah well!

That's what a blogs for right?

Rambling on about crap or how life sucks or rocks

Or how incredibly BORING it gets...

I think next post I'll talk about my beliefs and "religion"...

So if youre easily offended when it comes to religion then please dont read my next post...

Well i dunno if any of what I just posted makes sense but I wish you all good luck in life!

And know that I luv everyone of you!

(In a friend kind of way of course!^-^)