Hey Everyone!!
I'm tired again but thank god it's Friday!!!
School just wipes me out!
*yawn*
Anyways I'm supposed to be talking about what I believe in...
I was baptized a christian but went to a Lutheran church until I was 9. I never really liked going to church except for friends and food....almost like school. So I think even then I didn't believe in God. But then, just recently, since 8th grade, my dad has started this whole 'Oh God is my savior' thing and he's been trying to almost force God on my younger sister and I. That's what finally made me think,
"Do I even believe in God???"
Seriously! I'm not sure if I'm just in my rebellious age or not but my dad has really been getting on my nerves lately!
(****Warning: I'm going to start venting. I sometimes get really whiny when I vent or complain a lot and sound ungrateful but it feels great to get things off your chest once in awhile...)
I mean every time I try to bring something up like faeries or something he shoots it down and says its not real. But then he adds 'Unicorns are real because God made them'
Ugh!!
That makes me so mad!!
What is with this God anyway???!!
If he's so praised then why are so many people suffering down here while he's sitting up in cozy old 'heaven' ???!!
And why is he a he!!??
Huh?!!
Why is that!!??
Because this religion was made in the time when men thought they were superior to women!!
And he has such a big ego!!
My dad was talking about how god said that you could only believe in him and no other gods and if you did believe in other gods it was a sin.
My god!!
(Excuse the pun. It wasn't intentional.)
why is Christianity so hot and other the other religions unreal??!!
Why cant we believe in whatever the hell we want to huh???
Or how about a mixture???
*heavy sigh*
Okay now that's off my chest I can talk about what I do believe in.
I believe in magic.
Go ahead laugh at me.
I don't care.
It's what I believe in and I'll stand by it.
I'm open to must religions as long as there not big superficial things!
The kind of magic I'm talking about is stuff like elves and faeries and dwarfs and dragons and spells and witches and true love and curses and other worlds and secret doors to different places and things happening right under our nose that we dismiss as everyday events and really they are extraordinary chances that we, being ignorant humans, miss...etc...
Things like that.
That's why I'm always off in another world daydreaming of beautiful things.
That's why i love reading and writing.
But then someone says,
"Ya know they're not real right? It's all fakes and illusions."
And I just shrug it off and pig-headedly stand by it but I don't like arguing these kind of things much...
I don't believe in Santa the Easter Bunny or stuff like that but...you know what I believe in...
I've gotta go to bed now....maybe....I think i may fiddle around on the Internet some more even though it's late and my eyes are drooping...
I just don't want to go to bed yet....
I'm to restless after I vent...
So...
I wish you all a good late night and may your dreams come true!
