Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Forgive And Forget---Live Your Life The Way You Want


Okay this is a short blurb that i quickly typed onto the computer a few days ago...i haven't read over it at all so i don't know what it sounds like so yeah....>>'


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“We…” She began, choking out her words, “We shouldn’t see each other anymore…we can’t see each other…I want this to end…” He stood rooted to the spot in shock.
“I…I don’t understand…” He managed to squeeze out from his tight throat.
“What’s not to understand, Edward?!” She cried in desperation. “I’m breaking up with you!” The words tore at both of the young couple’s hearts.
“But why?!” He yelled back with equal force. “Everything was going great....It was perfect… I thought we were-you were happy…together…with me.” The young man force dwindled as the end of his sentence came nearer.
“Well, maybe I wasn’t happy with you! Maybe everyday was a living hell just breathing the air around you and feeling your touch on my skin! Maybe I hated you!” The young girl’s emotions were swirling into an angry cyclone of frustration and deep unending despair. Frustrated tears coursed down her pale face as the barbed words flew into the air tearing half of her heart out along with it. The words hit Edward as if he had just a blow to the face. His handsome face went slack, his broad shoulders hung low and he stood silent and shocked staring brokenly at the girl he loved. The fragile girl looked through her curtain of tears at her used-to-be love her firm resolution wavered and almost broke completely, “Edward, I…I…” She reached a hand out to him but she stopped shaking her head and dropping her hand her tears flowed anew. “Goodbye Edward.” She said her dull. Then with a shaky turn she put one foot forward and ran.
Edward watched her go until she disappeared around the corner of the school’s brick wall.
“Mio…” he muttered. He looked down at his legs and urged them to move, to chase after but they felt as if they were tied down by lead weights. He thought of her crying face and the way her eyes looked so sad-so full of despair-as if her heart were breaking. But why would her heart be breaking? She was the one breaki-
He stopped mid-thought a revelation dawning on him and he felt his legs break free of the illusionary weights as they carried him to his companion. He wasn’t sure what he was going to do if he couldn’t find her but he didn’t have to worry because Mio had not made any farther than around the corner. Sobs racked her body and her shoulders heaved a teary stain spread through her sleeves as her blonde head hid in the cradle of her arms wrapped tightly around her knees.
“Why?1 Why?1” he heard her muffled cries. His head was swirling in confusion. He stepped nearer,
“Mio?” He said softly. The young girl whipped her head up her eyes red and swollen from the cascade of tears, her nose red. “Edward…” she whispered. “No!” She cried again. She hurriedly scrambled to her feet and was ready to run again but not before Edward had caught her in a fierce hug. The girl struggled shouting and kicking in his arms but he held on resolutely. She finally collapsed into his chest digging into the fabric with her fingers and burying her head in his chest. “It’s not fair!” she cried her chest heaving from her struggle and sobs. Edward comforted her and began smoothing her golden locks.
“Shh….shh…” he hushed, “What’s not fair?” he inquired softly.
“It’s not fair…” she cried once more only with less passion and force. She was exhausted and emotionally drained, she continued on despite the fact, “Why!?” she questioned no one in particular. “Why do I get to be so happy?! Why, when everyone around me is suffering and unhappy?! Why am I so lucky!!?? I don’t deserve this happiness!” “Mio! Mio!” Edward chided lovingly. “Bad stuff is going to happen no matter where you go and everyone, even the people you hold close, is going to suffer more than once in their lifetime. Even though you try to protect them from all the unhappiness in the world it’s bound to catch hold of them, but they’ll recover, because they have people who love and care for them. And just because they’re unhappy doesn’t mean you have to be too. You’ve gone through rough spots in your life too. Now it’s your time to be happy. Whoever is up there looking after you has decided that you’ve deserved a break and plus. Do you really want to make me unhappy too? I’m a very selfish person and would like to stay happy but that means that you have to be happy and with me all the time.” Edward smiled deviously as Mio looked up at him a small smile hovering about her lips.
“I…I think you’re right. Thank you.”
Edward kissed her forehead and wiped her tears away gently with his thumb.
“And since I’m a selfish person too I want you to give me a real kiss.” Mio smiled just as deviously as Edward. Their shadows stretched out across the pavement as they embraced in a passionate kiss. The sun sank behind them casting their figures in shadows as it was swallowed up by the fiery clouds of its farewell.
The young heartfelt couple broke away breathless from their long, heated kiss.
They gazed into each other’s eyes the sky lit up with the flame of the sun’s passion behind them and the twinkling stars ahead of them in an undecided blanket of darkness.
“Edward?” Mio spoke softly lulled by the love that filled the air with an enveloping warmth.
“Yes.” He replied wrapping his arms around her waist and picked her up in his arms.
She wrapped her arms around his neck still staring into his gorgeous eyes.
“I love you.” She stated simply but with so much passion and truth that it made their hearts skip a beat. Edward chuckled softly.
“I know. And I love you too, with all my being.”
And as they walked home in the shadows of the setting sun, they shared another tender kiss.
Their love filled the air, the sky, and their selves.

****Endnote: This story was really meant to have a different theme but it still ended up being romantic because I just cant resist.
But that’s beside the point. What I wanted to share through this small blurb is that there are going to be rough points in your life when you feel like you’ll never pull out of that pit of despair that you’ve sunken into. There’ll be a time when you feel like you’ll never be able to smile a real smile or stop crying every day you come home, a time where it seems like theirs no hope and there is no point in living. And you’ll fill up with self-loathing for everything stupid or hurtful you’ve done. But you have to remember everyone has gone and will go through times where they feel like it’s the end. You are not alone no matter what you think. There is definitely always someone who cares for you and wants you to be happy, and I’m not talking about someone like your true love or anything, I’m talking about your friends and family because even though you may think that they all hate you or are mad at you or just don’t care the truth is they really do. Even if it’s the person you’re having a huge argument with, deep down they really care about you, love you. You should know because that’s how you, yourself feels. You may not want to admit but it’s true you still care no matter how much you don’t want to, love is an emotion all humans feel.
I want you all to know is that I’ve gone through crap like this and have even come close to contemplating suicide but I knew that was the cowardly out and I’m too stubborn of a person to give up that easy. And even if you’re not thinking of suicide don’t give up on being happy because everyone has a right to be happy. This is hard, really hard, to do but you have to stop focusing on the negatives and start thinking of all the good things that have happened to you and all the people who really love you. You’re friends and acquaintances your parents and siblings your aunts and uncles your grandparents strangers you’ve offered a helping hand too and they received it greatfully.
Being unhappy isn’t fun but it’s bound to happen you cant control that. But you can control how long it lasts and how strong you are once you pulled out of it.
Remember that I love you too. Even if I don’t know you my heart reaches out to you too. We can all relate. We’ve all felt that unending despair. We all have the same emotions. And it’s up to all of us to be happy and help others be happy too.
My love goes out to you.
Love, me.
Love yourself.


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So anyways...

I'm a happy camper right now!

I got my favorite magazine today in the mail

The weather is gorgeous!

I had a wonderful walk home

And my dad hasn't called yet


I don't mean to brag but right now....

I AM THE LUCKIEST GIRL ALIVE!!!

I just feel so great!

It's refreshing!

I've generally always been a happy person but im just ecstatic right now!

You could probably see the stars in my eyes! >///<


Anyways I love you guys!

I really do!

Hugs and Kisses!!

*squee*

~A.Q.

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