Dream Time.....Maybe.....

~~~"Now kiss me."~~~

All right... i can promise you right now that I really dont remember too much and chunks are definitely going to be missing.

So let me fill you in on what i think you missed.

When i left to go to Eric's i dont really remember what happened. I dont remember anything at all about the letter or mission and the only part i can really remember is the very end.

So.....

I'll start from there and try to make it make sense...

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I had come to terms that my pale skinned, dark-eyed, gorgeous exchange student was a vampire.

Not only had i come to terms but i had embraced it and even fell in love with him.

I know that he loves me too. Although his reasons are unclear of why a magnificient being like him would pick a girl like me to fall in love with when there were plenty of other more beautiful girls to choose from. I do not complain because now I do not know what life would be like without him. Would I be able to go on living on if he somehow died? I find it hard to believe that i could.

He has this way of holding me in his lap that makes me feel so...protected, warm, and loved. Like nothing could ever take that moment away. I guess this is what love feels like. It's painful and confusing and it makes you cry a lot but it's the most wonderful feeling in the world and you will never experience anything as great as love.

I wanted it to last forever but fate had other plans.

"Why?!" I cried by his bedside. I gripped his hand in an iron grip and lay my head upon his chest. "Why does this have to happen to us?!"

Damian brought his other hand up to rest gently on my head. He began stroking my hair in effort to console me but my tears flowed freely.

"Shh." He whispered soothingly. His velvet voice caressing my ears. "This is for the best. You need to be able to lead a normal life one that's safe and protected."

I shook my head, "I dont want a normal life! Not if its without you! It's not fair! It's not fair!" I heard myself whine like a baby but didn't care. How could this happen? How could Damian be dying?

A soft musical chuckle graced my hearing and i saw his lips curve up in that familiar smirk. "Whoever said life was fair? This is my time to go. I lived longer than any other normal being and witnessed greater things than anyone. I also was lucky enough to fall in love with the most enchanting girl in the world and was smiled upon enough to have her fall in love with me." His smile grew and his razor sharp canines glinted devishly from the corners of his mouth. We drew closer and shared a teary kiss. (The tears provided by myself) I pulled away out of breath and stared into his dark ebony eyes. He was still smiling and his hand rose to wipe the tears from my face. I leaned into his hand and breathed in his intoxicating scent and was alarmed when even my human nose could smell death upon him.

"There must be something we could do..." I whispred hoarsley.

"The only thing that'll save me now is blood but....I refuse to revert back into my old ways and risk endangering the one I love." He smiled again and continued stroking my hair. His smile fell and was replaced by a worried frown at my silence.

"What are you thinking?" He asked his voice wary and laced with mistrust. "You know i would never do that Jessica." He warned a feteral growl rumbling in the back of his throat a soft warning that his temper was flaring. I ignored it and gripped his hand tighter.

"But-"

"No."

"Then you wouldn't-"

"No."

Why-"

"No!" He finally snapped as my pleading drove onward my human stubborness showing through. "Jessica for the last time no! I do not want to create more regret than i already have. Think of what it'd do to me if I killed you. How do you think i could live with myself?" His velvet voice held the sharpness of a concealed dagger. I was pushing too much but it wouldnt stop me. I was human after all, and his harsh words wounded me. I let go of his hand and sat back on my knees.

"What about me!?" I insisted. "How do you think I'll be after you're gone?!" I started to bawl again my voice converting to a high cracked pitch so much different then his smooth and musical voice. "Do you think i could go on living without you?! 'Cause you're wrong! I'd rather die than live without yo-!" I was surprised when I felt his hand on my mouth. He glared down at me from the bed his breathing ragged.

"Don't you ever say that!" He growled. "You have too many reasons to live to want to die. I'll always be by your side but you have to promise me, no matter what, that you will never give up on living." His tone was hard. I nodded against his hand and he let it drop and pulled it next to him. He collapsed down onto the bed and heaved a sigh. "Good. Now i dont think I have much time left. So I'd like to tell you something." I tried to resist bawling outloud and shook with my efforts as unheard sobs racked my body. He began, "Know that I love you Jessica. With my whole being. Nothing will ever change that. And i want you to know that once i'm gone i will still love you and will always be by your side though not in person." He paused to take a rattling breath. "And in this short time i would like to ask for you to be my wife." I stared at him for a moment and then finally broke down and bawled. I nodded my head and with a shaky breath i answered

"Y-yes!"

"Then come here." He beckoned with an elegant pale hand. I took his hand and flinched. I stared down at it in my hand.

"I-its warm...!" I gasped and stuttered. His usual stone cold skin was hot!

He nodded his head sadly. "Death is setting upon me quickly." i took a sharp breath and held in my tears as he brought me closer to him. "This mark will stay here so long as you love me and i love you." He said as i felt his canines dig into my neck and there was a sharp prick followed by a cool tingling sensation that numbed my neck for a split second and then disappeared.

He fell back against his pillow and looked at me.

"Now kiss me." He smiled. And i obliged.

This time he pulled away breathless and just uttered a simple phrase, "Oh god I love you..." before he pushed me backwards with exceeded force and i watched distressed as he began to light in flames. His veins came alive with fire and it puored from his body. I watched as his form slowly began to disappear and saw that he was still smiling. And with a desperate attempt i tried to reach him but only managed in getting out a few words.

"I'll always love you Damian!" I cried. I swear i saw him mouth 'you better' before the fire roared suddenly and vanished in a whisp of air leaving behind a whispered phrase,

"I love you Jessica."

I dont know how long i sat there tears coursing down my face and my chest heaving with sobs but after awhile i rose with a jolt and ran to the mirror hanging on the wall.

Sweeping my hair aside i looked at the place Damian had 'marked' me in the crook of my neck.

I lighlty touched the ink black lily that graced my neck.

"Damain" I uttered.

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Even to this day I still bear the mark of Damian. My love has never failed and his has lived on forever. As he promised he stayed with me the whole time renting out a large place in my heart for a home. I still wonder waht my life would have been like if i had never met my Damian.

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Okay.....so.....

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I'm kinda embarrassed about my dream....its kinda corny and mushy....

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And it probably makes no sense because it doesnt even make sense to me

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And there's so much missing from it that its not even like a complete thought/dream....

So i tried to use my 'writer's license' to fix it up a little and make it a little more interesting.

And now that I've written all this down i think i might write a story based on it.

Tell me what you think.

Comments appreciated.

;)

Your embarrassed friend,

A.Q.

First Off...Comments

Okay i'm planning on doing a lot of posts today!

(Hopefully)

But first off I'd like to address all of my commenters...

Dear people who comment on my blog,

I LOVE YOU!!

Thank you so much!

I love that you take the time to read my blog and when you comment it makes me really happy!

I know it might sound a little stupid....

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But i really appreciate it

Thanks!

:)

And even the people who go as anonymous (Even though the mystery of who it is kills me!(Big curiosity problem))I enjoy reading theirs too although i like to know who its coming from so i can properly thank them and even if its harsh (and so far none have been) sometimes the truth is better even though it can suck sometimes.

;)

But anyways i'm just babbling nonsense right now so I'd like to reply to the most recent comment that i got.

Its from an anonymous person(If you'd like to tell me who you are it'd be greatly appreciated! *hint hint* *nudge nudge* :P)

It was left under my "No longer an item" post.

don't worry girlfriend. If there's one thing I know...It's boys. if you like one really go after him. You'll find the right guy soon honey, I'm sure.

Thank you and I'm pretty sure I may have found the right one but I want to start this differently than my other relationship. I want to get to know him better and let him get to know me better.

;)

I have gotten more self confident from my past experiences(at least i hope ><) and maybe even a little bit more wiser. If that makes sense cause right now I'm just typing out the first things that pop into my head and most of the time its nonsense

:P

So relationships are big drama that I'd rather tune down for now and move onto another topic...

I've gotten some requests(mainly from one person ;P) to continue posting my dream.

I would just like to warn you that it's been awhile and i don't remember as much. Pieces will be missing and details will most likely be more vague than before so.....i hope it's still as good as before.

Anyways I think I'll leave this off here and begin trying to remember my vampire dream.

;)

So until next post...

A.Q.

Dream continued...

I don't know if I'll ever finish this dream but I should just keep going with it i guess so...here's s'more of my vampire dream

(Warning: Most of my dreams have a lot of romance in it and sometimes its a little corny...^-^)

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I turned down the hall and to the left and set his suitcase on the small bed in the sparse room.

"Sorry the bed is so small...it's all we have..." I said suddenly feeling a little self-conscious of our accommodations.

"It is quite all right. I'm sure we can figure something out." He smiled that close-lipped smile again and i felt as if my heart would jump out of my chest and skitter across the floor. I found my self wordless and an awkward silence stretched out into the empty space that spanned between us.

"Ummm...." I tried to break the silence that was slowly thickening and becoming almost suffocating. "C-can I take your coat...?" I winced at my stutter. His smile came again and i thought that i had better get out of the before I passed out from the beating of my heart against my rib cage.

"Thank you." Oh god. This was going to be a difficult year if even those simple words made me swoon. I took his coat and took the small step that was needed to get through the door. It was a small apartment. I stopped and peeked my head back in the door to say something else.

"Umm...d-" I stopped short and felt a hot blush rush to cover my face full of surprise. Damian was pulling his shirt off to change and was now standing their his beautiful marble like skin gleaming in the afternoon sun that was streaming through the window. Every feature of his flawless perfectly toned body was accented with the radiance of the sun. Now I really was going to faint! I felt my knees go weak. He turned to me and saw me flushed and gaping but it didn't seem to mind it. Actually it was as if he was expecting it.

"Yes?" He said with a smile. I could feel my knees giving way beneath me.

"O-once you're....umm....youre decent would you....uh....l-like to join us for dinner? I mean! Would you like to join us for lunch?!" I finally managed to get out after fumbling like a newborn over the words.

"That would be great." I only stayed long enough to hear 'great' as I slammed the door to his room and collapsed right outside his door, sliding down the wall. This was definitely not good for my health. I stayed their for a few seconds to catch my breath before slowly standing up testing the strength of my legs. when I deemed them trustworthy i got up to put his coat in the hall closet and go help my mother with the cooking. As I was hanging up his coat something fell out of the pocket. I picked it up and saw that it was a letter addressed to Damian. I read the cover.

To Master Damian:

Enclosed in this letter are the details of your assignment.

Let no one but you read the contents of this letter.

This is of the up most importance.

'Assignment' ? What was that supposed to mean?

"Is something wrong?" I jumped and quickly pocketed the letter in my back pocket. Turning around I found his beautiful face mere inches from mine. I gulped and felt my knees go weak again.

"It was n-nothing...I thought I saw a mouse but it was just an old sock collecting dust bunnies..." I trailed off as I felt his breath on my face and he leaned in closer. I saw a smile on his lips but it was not the amused smirk that he wore before but one that emanated wickedness. His mouth came closer and closer to me and as I thought 'Oh god! He's going to kiss me!' he passed my cheek brushing it with his and with a jolt i realized that it was shockingly cold despite the 90 degree weather outside(And in). I watched as he finally uncovered his teeth as he smiled but I wished that he hadn't because on each side of his mouth his canines were unusually large...and pointed. Fangs!

I let out a squeak of a scream and started to fall as my knees gave out. Damian pulled away and I caught a quick glimpse of blood red crimson eyes before he shook his head and his eyes became normal again. With disconcerting speed he caught me before I hit the floor and he picked me up as if I weighed nothing at all holding me like a groom carrying his bride over the threshold of their new house. Panicking I began hitting him and thrashing in his arms.

"Let me go! Let me go! I said...let!Me!Go!" I shouted. My mom came in towelling off her hands.

"What's going on?" She said worriedly.

"Mom-mmf!" My attempts to warn my mother were prevented as Damian subtly pressed my face hard in to his cold chest to muffle my cries.

"It's nothing Mrs. Brindle. She was just feeling faint. I was just about to carry her to her room. That's all." Damian's lustrous voice immediately convinced my mother off his story and that everything would be all right. I made a muffled sigh of frustration and with a lot of force pulled my head back enough to get out 'okay now...' before getting pressed back into his chest. He looked down at me warily and I glared up at him defiantly but my eyes softened in defeat. Slowly he set me down and I headed for the door grabbing my purse as I went.

"Where are you going?" Both my mother and Damian asked.

"I need some fresh air...I'm going over to Eric's." My mother nodded and Damian looked at me distrustfully. I rolled my eyes and walked out the door. "I'll be back at 5." I added.

That gave me an hour and a half to figure out what was going on.

To be continued....

(If you guys want me to...)

Okay my dream has turned out longer than I thought it would so it's going to take a while to actually tell the whole thing. It's amazing how such an awesome dream happened in only a few hours while this typing takes forever!!

Well anyways...

I'm at my mom's work right now. I'm volunteering to help out with an event down in the art center. I'm going to be helping supervise kids as they do artsy stuff down there. I don't know if anything will be as much fun as when i worked for the summer down in the art center.

Ah well...

The breaks almost over and I'm starting to feel the stress of school weigh down on my shoulders once again.

I guess that's it for now.

Have a great day everyone!!

Good Morning!!

Hello everyone!

I'm a morning person, and my friends' worst enemy! So a warning if I post early it may sound a little...well...maybe very.... crazy!
^-^

Well....
So far this morning i haven't really done anything....
I kinda just woke up....
But i did have a cool dream let's see if I can get it to make sense...

I was living in an apartment with my mom, and no one else, but we were waiting on the couch, after thoroughly cleaning the apartment, for our exchange student to arrive. He was in college and I was in my senior year of high school.
There came a knock on our door and my mom was the one who got up to answer the door while I stood behind her nervously peering around her shoulder trying to get a peek at our new guest.
"Hello. Are you Damian?" My mother asked politely. And then i heard a voice a soft as velvet and rich as chocolate flow past my mother and trickle into my hearing.
"Yes. And you are Mrs. Brindle (*Note: That name is made up to cover my real last name.) "and Miss Jessica i presume." I listened, entranced, to the elegant lilts in his voice as he spoke.
"Well come in then and we'll show you around." My mother took his luggage and turned around to hand it to me. "Jess will show you to your room." I watched as our stranger came in through the door and let me tell you the words 'tall dark and handsome' did nothing for him.
He was tall but gracefully so, he had beautiful silken locks of raven black hair that was cut in jagged layers that complimented his angular, almost elfin, features. His skin was the palest i had ever seen, but not of an unhealthy pallor, it was pearly, almost translucent. His eyebrows were thin and elegant and arched as if he was always amused. And his eyes! He had the darkest most beautiful eyes I had ever seen and ever hoped to see. You almost felt like drowning yourself in those dark, velvet eyes of his. In fact i think i was because with a gasp i realized that i had been holding my breath.
"You're room is this way..." I said breathlessly. And out of the corner of my eye i saw his ethereal, pale lips turn up slightly at the corners in a smirk. It probably wasn't anything knew to him, strange girls losing their breath over him.
But soon i was to find out how literally they lost they're breath because our new stranger that had quickly stolen my heart was indeed...

A vampire!

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(*Note: the picture is not supposed to be a picture of the vampire in my dream...it's just the best picture of a vampire i could find that wasn't 'R' rated...)

Well that's part of my dream definitely not the whole thing.

Tell me if you want me to continue.

Kay???

Well this is it for now so I'll leave off with another quote.

"People say that eyes are the window to the soul. So- if you are blind does that mean you have no soul? And if you're eyes are dark does that mean your soul is too?"